Oh so what was going to be so easy, offering your home & life to your patents, so there life was easier and in the reach of everyone that loved them. But, hey some people don't want that, guess their afraid of giving in, letting others care for them, perhaps admitting that they are now not the big man they once were.
So as you can guess it all went wrong! What started slowely as let's look at the options, explore the benefits well this sales women failed to sell ice to Eskimos this time. Dad was having none of it. He started in a huge negative bubble which just grew and grew, even if I agreed I was wrong, if I disagreed I was so wrong, there is a point when you go ok but hey that wasn't even enough for him. He had to say such hurtful things that I had listened to on too many occasions, I'm selfish, take too much interest in my job and wasted my time with not offering any help to him and he didn't know why I was there. Quote "I don't know why you bothered coming, you haven't done anything you said you would, all your interested in is your job and shopping, you should not of come". So all the shopping to buy mums clothes at his request, packing and sorting wardrobes, clearing the loft, cooking, cleaning, washing etc etc if that's me being selfish then it's time to say goodbye. Every conversation is an argument, but I didnt bite, I kept my mouth shut, but heard too much.
I just kissed him and said " you've hurt someone who loves you for the last time, goodbye"
But as I now sit in a hotel room crying my eyes out all I can remember is mum, her confused
face and asking why I was leaving, I kissed her and said I loved her and would see her again"
She will be upset, but tomorrow not remember, she won't even know who I am, that's a stab in the heart, she asked me today if I had any babies!!
BuT the memory will stay with me forever, as I try and type this through blurred tears I just hope that one day I will be able to take care of her, even if she doesn't know who I am, I will know.
At least type doesn't smudge from tears xxxxx
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